For the first time since I came to Australia I felt down – I reached the low phase and sank into it, because I forgot what it was like.
For the last weeks everything seemed to constantly improve. I explored and discovered beautiful places and met amazing people from all around the globe. I’ve moved forward with my dreams to the point where I got a taste of what it would be like to accomplish them. I’ve never been happier with my life and myself. Finally I was busy living – the life I always admired. I bought myself a guitar for my birthday and started practicing. I began to improve my pronounciation by talking to natives, therefore express my love for languages. I started to write a blog and spend my days at my favourite spot on earth – the beach.
But winter came and so did the routine. The intense rush I experienced began to ease.
It became more a Work than a Travel visa and I didn’t know how to handle the change from carefree days back to (at times stressful) work days. The rainy days washed away my motivation to explore. My inspiration to write vanished. My plans were delayed to days with more energy, but they weren’t in sight. As intensed as I felt those positive emotions, so did I feel the negative ones.
A few weeks back I decided to stay in hostels rather than an appartment, since I knew that there lays an important lesson – how to deal with people. As passionate as I am about challenging myself, I changed the hostel every week to get myself out of my comfortzone. I can’t even count how many people I’ve met during the last 4 months. Everyone was different and the acceptance my good friend back home teached me were put to the test. I’ve overcame my shyness and was no longer afraid to make the first move to talk with strangers. I became comfortable in my own skin and I felt that the happiness that it brought shine through. Even I am not where I want to be yet, I am fine with where I stand.
There is always something happening in hostels, but sometimes you just need a quiet moment by yourself. Recharge from the stress at work. At times you can’t be your bubbly self. Sometimes you don’t want to be the one starting a conversation. The thought that my every move makes a first impression on someone created so much pressure in me.
I fell back to reality. The truth is that life’s circle is balanced by undulation of happiness and misery. There will always be up & downs. We wouldn’t be able to appreciate the good times without the bad ones. Keep in mind that neither is permanent.
“Everything in life is temporary. So if things are going good, enjoy it because it won’t last forever. If things are going bad, don’t worry, it can’t last forever either.”
Not only is this a message to you, it is a reminder to myself.